Random Thoughts

I have so many random thoughts throughout the day. Right now I know I should be folding laundry to keep up, because I have a HUGE pile to fold..ugh...but this sounds like more fun.

Here are a few I had today...

...the best thing that pampered chef makes are the little brown scrapers they give away with the stones. I use mine everyday, but I don't use anything else pampered chef...HA!

...what if we pooped a different shape, I mean then the plumbing and toilets would be different right?

....I love rain but not cold rain, just warm rain.

....how come every time I blow my nose the snot I just blew out is immediately replaced with new fresh snot to clog my sinuses.

....the worst part about a cold is the first day or two when all you taste is snot and all food tastes like snot ( the drainage stage), at least if you are just congested food tastes like nothing...but not snot.


...would Nate be mad if I just ripped the carpet out of my dining room. Maybe? ...surely not...just do it....no not today!

Well, that is it for now, but I have only been up for 4 hours, so I think that is pretty impressive :)

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Not MY kid...

Kaden has been playing like he is a cat lately. Addison calls him "kitty" and they really get into this. Although, Kitty gets punched a lot... Kaden will even not talk to me and then say "Kitty's don't talk" Anyway the other day they were doing this while Nate was home and I too was calling Kaden "kitty". And then Nate said, "I don't want to have the kid who acts like a cat all the time, so please don't encourage this." It just made me laugh because I know the kind of kid Nate is talking about only they are 10 and completely lost in the fantasy of being a cat. One girl I knew just went around hissing at people all the time, HA HA. I hardly think Kaden, at 3 falls into that catagory, BUT I think it is hilarious because most things bother me more than Nate.

How do I let go of the guilt?

Guilt! Nate says I am the most guilty person in the whole world. Meaning, that I feel guilt for everything. How can I sit here and eat this McDonald's hamburger when children all over the world are dying of starvation. Why is it I have my entire family here with me when others lose theirs? I hardly ever spend money on myself, when I do I can't help but think it is not necessary and better spent on something else. What do I do with that? Do I let it go, or is that just who I am. I think of countless families whom I have seen struggle with the loss of a child or who's children have a very serious illness. It isn't that I am afraid of that happening to me, but I feel guilty that it is them and not me. Do I bear the weight of the world on my shoulders? Why do I do that? This world is not my home, I anxiously await the day when there will be no tears, when I stand the the presence of my God and sing his praise without ceasing. Right now I am trying to lay it all at Jesus' feet, to let it go and live a life surrendered to Him. That is all I know how to do. I can't save the world, I can't heal someone's pain, but Jesus can. He can save our souls, and maybe through me he can change the world! Is it guilt or is it the Holy Spirit tugging at my heart to soften it to the needs of those around me? I am WAY too emotional, and I think WAY too much...

I thought we were past this!

Ok here is an entertaining story. Kaden asked me to help him find his Superman hat. I said to wait a minute and promptly forgot to help him. I go to take a shower and enter my closet to get my clothes and find Kaden sitting on top of a PILE of Nates work clothes. Shirts/jackets/sweaters/BDU's/pants. Thrown from the hangers flooding out the closet door. I did not yell...I did not scream...I said "what are you doing!" with a bit of shock in my voice. Kaden fell apart crying "I can't find my hat" I kept my cool, I held him and apologized for forgetting to help. He only took matters into his own hands, and looked. Only he took the entire closet down in the process - I thought we were past these big messes. I did not take a photo, because I made him help me clean it all up right away. I did not want to humiliate him. Anyway, we never found the hat, but we both learned how to handle the situation -

Kaden- don't tear Mom and Dad's closet apart - NOT COOL.

MOM- find out the reason behind the behavior even if he just tore your closet apart and made a BIG mess for you to clean up. GO MOM!!!

What is going ON!!!

What is going on with this blog....apparently nothing. I could tell you that three kids is really hard and I work all the time on cleaning the house and cooking. BUT really I am just lazy. My life isn't really that hard. I have three great, healthy kids...a loving husband...enough money to not only survive but enjoy life...a savior who died for my sins so I can spend eternity with him. So I really have nothing to complain about.

So hmmm....no complaining....what do I write about....

Ok, I can't resist writing about the kids. Juliana ate little cooked apple pieces yesterday and my chicken and stuffing dinner. I know you are thinking, big deal. But for her it is!! She usually acts like she gags on any chunky food. We still have not mastered Cheeerio's. I finally got her to eat the Gerber puffs. I was feeling like she would be on baby food FOREVER. There is light at the end of the tunnel.

Kaden is getting sick, with what I had for over 2 weeks. YUCK! He loves preschool and is sad because he can't go today. He tells me that Jesus is in his heart all the time, Jesus and blood (Dad had to pull the WELL ACTUALLY, you have blood in your heart too because blah blah blah). Oh the faith of a child!

Addison is into video games. Yes, my 4 year old can almost play the Wii better than I can. Now, please don't think he spends all day playing. He looks forward to Saturday when he gets to play with Dad. That is right....only a few hours/one day a week. But he always askes me how many days until Saturday. He is also a collecter, collect rocks, toys, buzz lightyears, you name it!

It was a LONG and Short summer. Nate was gone a total of 12 weeks. We made it!! Now he has interviews and the Military match in December. Come on San Antonio!!! Anyway. I think that wraps it up. I will try not to wait so long for my next post!

Nothing NEW!

So, really I have very little new and exciting things going on right now. I thought I would just post an update. Juliana is getting BIG, she is in 6-9 month clothes even though she is only 4 months. The funny thing is that she is pretty "average" so do they make girls clothes smaller? Kaden is potty trained ....YEAH!!! He has accidents occasionally, but hey I can handle those. Addison told me he was 8 today because he knows how to use scissors. Oh yeah and did you know that there are such things as day AND night pants. Yes...you get to wear them both day and night. Thank you Addison for enlightening me about these special pants that I never knew existed. I learn something new everyday! Now I just need to figure out where to get me a pair.

We were at goodwill the other day and Addison picked up this beat up broken Buzz Lightyear toy. It was a BLUE one, we have a green one at home. The thing is WELL USED. I was going to make him put it back, but I just couldn't bear it, so I forked over the $1.99 for the piece of junk. And would you believe that it is his favorite toy? Yes, he plays with it about everyday, he doesn't even care that the helmet is broken. Who would have thought?

Kaden's newest gimmick is that he pretends to eat you when he gets mad at you. No, not biting, but playfully pretending to EAT you. complete with pretend chewing.

Now Addison is laying in bed singing "Come on lets do the poopy dance, come on...come on...come on."

Oh I have about a million things to laugh at every day!

I am "that" mom

Oh how I always had my opinions of what I would be like as a mother. My pre-mom ideas of what I would and wouldn't do. As I walked through the grocery store I would make the mental notes..."wow that mom is really mad at her kids, I would never do that in a grocery store." --- "look at that little brat crying over not getting candy, my kids will never do that." --- " oooh that little boy is throwing a temper tantrum, my kids wouldn't do that --- or it would be corrected immediately." ---- You know what I mean....all those snot nosed brats and their incompetent mothers. Well, I can officially say that I AM THAT MOM....

I am THAT mom whose kid is sitting in the middle of the parking lot in the middle of the freaking cold winter throwing a fit. All the while practically dragging him so he doesn't get run over by a car yelling at the older kid to stop and come back to mommy while juggling an infant car seat in the other hand (TODAY)

I am THAT mom with three kids in the next doctors office who's baby is crying and two boys keep banging into the walls.

I am THAT mom who's kids you are dodging in the grocery store because they don't look where they are going.

I am THAT mom who places miscellaneous items at the checkout because I am too busy/lazy/tired to take them all the way back to where they belong. Plus, one of the boys probably dropped it in the basket without me looking.

I am THAT mom who licks her finger and wipes various crumbs and smudges from my children's mouths.

I am THAT mom whose little boy is screaming "no" at the top of his lungs in the grocery store.

I am THAT mom who's kids are crawling in the clothes stands at the department stores knocking down all the shirts/pants/bras/undies and everything else you can imagine....gosh that is sooooo annoying :)

I am THAT mom with a stroller full of kids that make you say "don't you know what birth control is?"

I am THAT mom nursing her baby in public with no blanket, because I forgot one and the child NEEDS TO EAT.

I am THAT mom who's kid has no pants on when you come to the door because he keeps pooping in them.

I am THAT mom who is out and about with a kid who has a big bird shirt ( I swore my kids would never wear character shirts), grey sweats, dissheveled hair and a snotty crusted nose --- because mom is just not dealing with it today.

I am THAT mom who's little boy is crawling under all the stalls in the bathroom while his mom is taking a leak. Peek-a-boo...I surprised you!

Yes my friends....
I am THAT mom.

A night out on the town.

The day started with an onslaught of snow. It seems the first major snow we have had here..of course we have had plenty of ice. I woke up to the wonderful thought that tonight was my night out. Courtesy of my wonderful husband, who was going to stay with the kids while I went to an auction. It seems that an auction might be the best way to get some much needed items for the house on our tight budget.

I was stoked! I couldn't wait until 3 when my "alone" time would begin. I was already plotting in my mind what I might grab to eat on my way to the auction. It seems forever since we have eaten out...even fast food. It is just WAY to expensive since the boys need something as well. I once spent $18 for the the boys and I at McDonald's. I was shocked, but that is another story for another time.

Nate sent me a text to see if everything was a "go" for tonight. I hadn't even thought things would be canceled. But sure enough, the auction was canceled for the night. Boo! I was so discouraged. When Nate got home he told me to go out anyway and do something. YEAH! So, now I had to figure out what to do. So, where else would I go but the mall. I fought the bitter cold to get into the mall but all the time thankful I wasn't dragging 3 kids with me.

As I entered I spotted the Bath and Body works. Oh how I love their hand soap, it smells so good. And it was on sale too. I put that in the back of my mind and I wandered around the shops, maybe I would indulge and get one. I decided that I really didn't NEED soap, so I should probably pass on that one.

Then I saw a hair salon, fantastic idea...a haircut! I really did need a haircut...BAD. So I stopped in and was happy to see that there was no wait. And a cut was only $15, my kind of bargain. I was lead to a chair and the lady proceeded to ask what I wanted done. It has been probably 7 or 8 months since my last cut. But I wanted it cut short and where the front comes down longer than the back. So...she begins. I had a few tweaks here and there, but was pleased for the most part. It was hard to tell because I just paid for the cut and no style. So I left with my damp hair. Feeling lighter than normal and slightly feminine again. I strolled past Claire's and overcome with my new femininity, I went in...just to see! My ears are super sensitive, so I have not worn earrings in eons. I know that I would need sterling silver, so I head right for that rack. The prices weren't too bad. Dare I buy them? I know Nate would want me to have something and he would love them on me. So I did it...I bought two pairs, since my ears are double pierced. As I walked out of the store, I held miserly onto my little Claire's bag. Man it has been a long time since I bought something from a mall store. Not to mention earrings which serve no utilitarian purpose. Usually it would be shoes for one of the boys, or my last purchase of a purse that practically adheres itself to my body so I wont keep leaving them in the carts at the stores. This purchase was just for me, It felt so....weird.

I quickly put the earrings on and they went through just fine. I am sure the holes didn't close up anyway, never much had a problem with that. I decided I was hungry so I decided to grab some Panda Express, another one of my favorites. I sat there alone in the food court, watching people, thinking about life. It felt good to have time just to sit and reflect, something I love to do but is often interrupted by my energetic children.

Tonight was shaping up to be a great night. I found a picture at Hobby Lobby that Nate told me I could get for above our couch. We have been looking for some time, and this one was 50% off, a great deal. That was the climax of the night because after that, it all went downhill. When I got home I showed off my new haircut. Nate said warily that it looked "good". Hmmm...just "good"... then I heard the word "alright". What was wrong with it? Then said, "what did she do to the back?" I freaked. What did he mean? Sure enough there was a line in the back of super short hair...maybe the stylists version of a "layer." I didn't think too much about it, I was enjoying my night and still wanted to hit the Home Depot for paint. Nate did love the earrings though.

I got the paint from Home Depot and made my way back home. When I opened the back door to get the paint out I noticed one of the can had tipped over and paint spilled all over the seat. OH NO!!!! I ran inside to tell Nate. All the while I feel the aftereffects of the oily Panda Express coming to haunt me, I feel nauseous. He took the carpet cleaner out in the sub zero temps to clean as much out as he could. To make a long story short, we now have a frozen paint stain in our back seat/trunk and $200 credit at Home Depot ( it is a crap car anyway, so don't freak too much about our new stain). The next morning I spent a good hour trimming my own hair from the mess that the mall lady made of it. I finally got to see the poor job she did and had a little freak out session of my own. I am happy with it now, but as I am cutting my hair with the scissors I repeat over and over to the boys....don't you ever do what mommy is doing. Goodness knows I don't need them cutting their own hair.

What a night. What a mess. What an adventure.

Addison's 4th birthday

Addison's 4th birthday was a BLAST. Complete with a Spiderman cake...made by myself and Aunt Net. And to top it off, this was during the ice storm in December, so my parents didn't have any electricity!! It was quite the adventure, but surely a birthday to remember.