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9 years ago
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
How do I let go of the guilt?
Guilt! Nate says I am the most guilty person in the whole world. Meaning, that I feel guilt for everything. How can I sit here and eat this McDonald's hamburger when children all over the world are dying of starvation. Why is it I have my entire family here with me when others lose theirs? I hardly ever spend money on myself, when I do I can't help but think it is not necessary and better spent on something else. What do I do with that? Do I let it go, or is that just who I am. I think of countless families whom I have seen struggle with the loss of a child or who's children have a very serious illness. It isn't that I am afraid of that happening to me, but I feel guilty that it is them and not me. Do I bear the weight of the world on my shoulders? Why do I do that? This world is not my home, I anxiously await the day when there will be no tears, when I stand the the presence of my God and sing his praise without ceasing. Right now I am trying to lay it all at Jesus' feet, to let it go and live a life surrendered to Him. That is all I know how to do. I can't save the world, I can't heal someone's pain, but Jesus can. He can save our souls, and maybe through me he can change the world! Is it guilt or is it the Holy Spirit tugging at my heart to soften it to the needs of those around me? I am WAY too emotional, and I think WAY too much...
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I feel you! It's so familiar... Honestly, I think you just need to refocus... instead of feeling guilty for what you have when others lack, focus on gratitude. Channel ALL of that guilt into gratitude. I know that's not enough, because you want to DO something about it. Yes, you do have to lay the burden at Christ's feet. But there are things you can do, things that if I know you-- you are already doing. You just need to recognize them. Think of raising happy, healthy kids who will contribute to society. Think of yourself as a candle- Let your light so shine before men. A candle's influence only reaches as far as the flame has strength, and as you gain strength your influence will increase from you, to your family, to your neighbors and friends, to your community, to your country, to the world. It's not so much that you need to DO anything differently... you just need to see what you do and what you have differently. I love you girl, we need to chat again soon!
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